Have you ever felt that things are out of control. That when the advise come out of the woodwork saying then control what you can control. What if you can't control that ?
My life should be full of going places with my husband. Visiting my sister and her husband and going places with them. taking vacations and working in the garden. creating new and fun things with my grand children. instead I am still working and buying a new home. how in the world can we keep going on. to keep payments up. giving 100 % at my job and doing conventions.
So different not slowing down. Only being grandma on the weekends something my grandboys tolerate because they don't know this grandma.
I want to do things with them and they just want to stay home.
I am so tired of trying to have the energy to give and give and give . I don't have time for me.
So I pitty party is only me because everyone is going their own way ..
So gird up the Loins and go on... At least when I have that heart attack I might be just done with life and ready to do genealogy work with Mom.
Love/Hate Summer/grown ups
6 months ago